“The truest help we can render an afflicted man is not to take his burden from him, but to call out his best energy, that he may be able to bear the burden.”

Phillips Brooks

For if there is surely hope

I was definitely a dope

To be so blind

And not so kind

To be so stupid

Not to recognize cupid

To get so stressed

Then to get so blessed

To have God replace my blindness

With an act of kindness

To bless me kindly

With my family finally!!!

My heart is deceitful and desperately wicked. I do not know it! I think that everything is going just fine and the Lord is blessing my life, when all of a sudden there is this horrible trader inside. It is as if the Devil himself has entered into my heart and twisted what the Lord has already accomplished in me. I know that it is not the Devil that is doing the twisting, but I who possesses the heart. The Devil is definitely involved in the process, but it is I who is lured away of my own lust.

My heart is as if it is an acid to my very soul. An acid that is destroying my very soul from the inside. It damages my soul in a number of ways. It first seems to affect my joy, then my peace, then my love, takes away my patience, burns my kindness, affects my goodness, and completely destroys my self control. I know that it is my heart for the word of God describes in detail how deceitful the heart is. It says that all the issues of life are stored here, according to the book of Proverbs. In the book of Matthew the Lord Jesus himself tells us how murder, adultery, hatred, etc. is in the heart of man.

When I was younger I did not know about life in general. I did a lot of exploring and came to find out that I was a messed up individual due to make a lot of bad choices. I still did not know that I had a heart condition. But I did come to the conclusion that the more bad choices that I made, the worse my life was. It was not until I came to Christ that I discovered that I even had a heart condition. I found out through reading the word of God (i.e. The Holy Bible), that my heart was the problem with my soul. By reading the word of God I figured out that I used to have a heart as hard as stone. And thank the LORD he gave me a heart of flesh. Now I can at least understand that I have a heart condition.

The heart of stone let me do anything and everything. It was dead and cold. Over time it became so hard that everything just did not affect it whatsoever. I had no joy, happiness, love, desires to do good, only to do bad, no peace, no kindness unless I was deceiving someone for some personal use or desire. I had a heart that was full of corruption. I used all of the tools of the Devil to self serve my selfish desires.

The heart of flesh that the LORD gave me, was a breath of fresh air when I received it. It was full of life and instilled into me all of the qualities that the LORD desired to put into my life. Such as love, peace, joy, kindness, goodness and self control. But somehow I have let the Evil One influence my thinking which has sank into my heart. I have let him into my life and I feel exactly how Paul describes his personal battle with the flesh in Romans chapter 7.

I know that there is only one thing that will completely take away this heart condition that I have and that is to totally surrender my heart and life over to Jesus and ask him to cleanse my heart with his precious blood that took away my sins on Calvary. He has told me to wash myself with his word, which does take away the filth of this world, but it does not take away my heart condition.

Only Jesus Christ and His perfect work on the Cross of Calvary can cleanse and purify this corrupted heart. I need to bow before my LORD and Savior and give Him this corrupted heart to repair. I need to ask Him to repair my soul that I have let this acidic heart damage and most of all, I need to ask Him to make sure that He does not let me get this kind of heart damage again. Whatever he tells me to do, I cannot expect to do it on my own, for I have tried this and failed miserably. That is why I have the heart condition that I have today. He needs to instill these protections into my life, so that I will have a healthy heart. By whatever means the LORD is going to do this I do not know, but I pray that He does it soon, before this acid does permanent damage. Not that the LORD could not repair that also, but that the damage would affect my testimony for the LORD.

Oh what a wretched man that I am!!! Thank you LORD that you are my Savior, now please put into my heart to obey my LORD, for whom I am not worthy to serve, yet by your grace and mercy I am fit to serve a King!!!!!!!!!!!!

When I was young and naïve I fell in love with a seductress.

She had stolen my heart and ran off with the key.

Which in turn left me in a very confused state of mind.

I chased after her to recover my heart, but the more I chased the further she would run and play.

In the mean time I had met a very beautiful woman that had given me her heart.

But being young and confused and of all things heartless I did not know what to do with it.

I could see the beauty in it, but I couldn’t fully appreciate it.

For I was blinded by the images of the seductress with my heart.

I was so blind that I couldn’t see that I was playing with the heart of this beautiful woman that truly loved me.

I was treating her heart as the seductress was treating mine.

But I was so focused on myself that I couldn’t see what was around me.

So I tossed her heart away and broke it.

As soon as I did this, another seductress came to me with false promises that she could show me how to be happy without a heart.

For she herself had lost hers long ago.

So I followed her to her nest and she ditched me to go play.

Well I confronted this seductress and she had nothing to say.

For she was heartless and just wanted to play.

Seeing what a fool I had been I went home again.

I searched for the beautiful woman that had given me her heart.

When I found her, her heart was still broken.

I convinced her that we could mend her broken heart and share it.

For I wanted to have a heart so bad.

At this point God seen the true intention of my heart, even though it was not with me.

And blessed me and the beautiful woman with a child.

At the child’s birth I was the happiest man on earth.

I shed tears of joy from this heartless soul.

And soon the beautiful woman and I exchanged wedding vows.

I was convinced that we could share her beautiful heart.

But soon the seductress that had my heart heard of my joy and happiness.

So she came back to find me.

When she found me she could see the kindness of the heart that I shared.

So she used her seductress ways to convince me that she needed my help.

I was so longing to have my heart back that I figured if I helped her, that she would release my heart back to me.

But instead she seduced me into breaking the heart I shared.

The second that I fell under the seductresses spell, God began taking his wrath upon me.

For I had broken the sacred marriage covenant.

And even though the Lord knew that the beautiful woman’s heart would be broken. He knew that she would be okay.

For she was blessed with a truly golden heart that was in the child.

That would never break her heart.

As for me, I was handed over to the seductress and her ways.

Satan was laughing, for I was under her spell.

Satan filled my heartless soul with pride and arrogance and knowledge.

He convinced me that logic was the only way to think.

The beautiful woman was so upset and heart broken that she threatened to keep the child from me.

The one with the golden heart.

I was so upset and heartless that I wanted to take the child and run.

But the seductress convinced me if I leave the beautiful woman and child to be.

That she would give me back my heart.

And deep down I knew that I would not lose the child. The one with the golden heart.

So the beautiful woman proceeded to divorce me.

For she could see how heartless I was.

But even on our final day in court I could see the beauty of her heart.

I think she could see my lost soul searching for my heart.

And she was still willing to share hers with me.

But I was so blinded by my pride and arrogance that I shunned her love.

Right after this the seductress was happy as can be.

She had stolen me.

But something happened that she did not for see.

Because I was heartless as can be.

She tried to use her seductress ways to manipulate me.

But I explained to her that the child with the golden heart was my only true concern.

Which in turn, left the seductress at a turning point.

She decided to give back my heart if she could share it.

For she has longed for a heart of her own.

But she doesn’t know how to use one.

So I agreed to share my heart with her.

And upon receiving my heart back, I could see the harm I had done.

I fought with myself and thought to myself what a fool I had been.

While the seductress learned how to use and manipulate my heart to her advantage.

While I was in eager pain.

She was in eager gain.

Soon she was in full control of my heart again.

She had manipulated me from within.

I thought for sure I was finally in true love.

That she was a gift from above.

I soon asked the seductress to marry me.

And she was happy as can be.

But soon she could see that the child with the golden heart, that her love was true to me.

And Oh, this could not be!!!

For now the seductress longs for me.

You see she had never had a heart before and she did not want to lose control over the one she had.

So she tried to put barriers between the child with the golden heart and her daddy.

And sometimes when I was feeling down she would succeed in getting between.

For by sharing my heart with her, she had corrupted it with her seductress ways.

But every time I look into the eyes of the child with the golden heart I could see true love.

Well this was a blessing from above.

You see God had blessed me too.

And finally I had seen through.

Well this really upset Satan, and he wasn’t going to let me go.

But God said he had to let me go.

So Satan rebelled and fought for my soul.

But God was with me and told him no!!!!

So Satan said I will go after the child.

But her daddy said no!!!!

So God said to me protect the child and show her how to protect herself.

To be a survivor, if I am not around.

Not that God wouldn’t be around, but her daddy.

For you see her daddy was going on a journey.

He didn’t know where he was going, but he knew how things were going to be when he got back.

You see he told the beautiful woman how it would be.

For God was blessing him with a prophesy.

He didn’t know it at the time.

For he was blind.

But God and Satan were battling for his soul.

Of course God won, but not before the damage was done.

You see Satan used the seductress to put him away.

So she could go out and play.

But what she didn’t know was that in the process he had stolen his heart back.

And threw away the key.

So the seductress searched and searched, but could not find it.

And I knew what she was looking for, but I refused to give her my heart again.

Until she could prove to me that she had one of her own.

But you see, she was so mad that I had stolen my heart back. That she decided to go after another one.

And so she searches, for she still doesn’t have one of her own.

Even though I have tried to show her the light.

She proceeds to take the path of darkness.

So be gone out of my life seductress!!!!

For I and the child with the golden heart shun you.

For we both tried to show you what true love is.

And you have proceeded to break both of our hearts.

As for the beautiful woman, she has never lost her beauty.

And even though her heart has scars on it, it is still as beautiful as ever.

For now that I have got my heart back, and God has helped me uncorrupt it.

I am not blinded anymore.

God has shown me what true love is.

And the kind of woman that I should give my heart to.

For if my heart is with God, he will bless my heart.

As for the beautiful woman, I believe her heart is with God.

So he will bless her also.

And for the child with the golden heart, I know her heart is with God.

So he will definitely bless her!!!!

When the beautiful woman brought the child with the golden heart to see me. She could see the change in me.

And for one brief moment I think we both felt electricity.

But I am sure she is afraid of me.

For I have not been trustworthy.

And I do not blame her you see.

I want to get to know her again.

To communicate and see where we have been.

For you see, we have both changed so much from then.

But I will not hurt her again.

Because I would hurt within.

And her beautiful heart doesn’t deserve that again.

The child with the golden heart, would never forgive me either now or then.

So I can never let that happen again.

I either commit myself to her forever or never again.

But for now I just want to get to know her from within.

To see if there is ever a chance to be together again.

For if we are truthful about where we have been.

And how we feel from within.

Then there is a possibility that we can be together again.

But this all has to stem from the beauty within, the beautiful woman.

For I have just gotten my heart back and I am looking for a friend.

And who better than the beautiful woman that gave me the child with the golden heart.

For my princess with eyes so blue

That you know they were meant for you

She has a golden heart

That I could see from the start

She has hair that is so blonde

And her love for me is so fond

She is so smart

That I trust her with my heart

She has so much talent

That I can’t even count it

She has a love for music

And she learns how to amuse it

She has a love for her mother

Like no other

She loves her dad

So he could never be sad

She believes in God

And I use to think this odd

But then I became a believer

And I know I will never leave her

Even if I was in the ground

I will always be around

So she should never fear it

Because I am always there in spirit

I will be home soon

Then you will feel like you are in a cocoon

For I will be near you

So I hope you hear me 

For my love grows stronger

And I won’t be here any longer

Our heart is where we keep our most treasured possessions, our love, dreams, hopes, desires, and faith

It is our internal safe, where we store up all of our treasures

As children all we want is to be loved by our loved ones

We treasure their company and desire their attention

As we get older we get distracted by other things

We start coveting with our senses

We start trusting our senses of seeing, touching, tasting, hearing, and smelling

Soon our heart starts getting filled up with other things

Our most prized possessions are buried in the back

Just like when we were a child our toy box was our safe

But as we possessed more toys, some of our favorites got buried in the bottom

And when we went to retrieve that toy, we would get distracted by other things in our toy box

Soon to have long forgotten about it again

After so many years our treasure chest is so full, that we don’t even know what we treasure the most anymore

That is when we need to completely empty it out and prioritize it

Get rid of a lot things that we held onto for so many years

Emptying out our heart and only putting back the things we choose to

Getting rid of all those distractions that held our attention

So that we can truly see what we truly treasure

We treasure the company of our loved ones and desire their attention

We long for their love

When children live with criticism, They learn to condemn.

When children live with hostility, They learn to fight.

When children live with ridicule, They learn to be shy.

When children live with shame, They learn to feel guilty.

When children live with tolerance, They learn to be patient.

When children live with encouragement, They learn confidence.

When children live with security, They learn to have faith.

When children live with fairness, They learn justice.

When children live with praise, They learn to appreciate.

When children live with approval, They learn to like themselves.

When children live with acceptance and friendship, They learn to find LOVE in the world.

Ken Brown

Then the king… rejected the advice of the elders.

2 Chronicles 10:13

Tragically, many people are the victims of their own bad decisions. Faced with choices every day, they turn their backs on what is right or what is best and decide instead on what is wrong or what will bring them harm. Only afterward do they realize that bad decisions always result in bad consequences.

King Rehoboam stubbornly rejected the wise advice of his nation’s elders and instead followed those who told him only what he wanted to hear. As a result, conflict broke out and the nation divided. The Bible warns, “Whatever a man sows, that he will also reap” (Gal. 6:7).

Life is filled with decisions – some minor, but some life changing. How will you make them? The most important thing I can tell you is this: Seek God’s will in every decision. Pray. Turn to the Scriptures. Seek the advice of godly friends. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you. God loves you, and His way is always best.

Billy Graham

If you knew where I am standing

If you could see the sights I see

If you could hear the angels singing

The songs they sing eternally

If you knew the One I’m holding

Could see the smile He smiles at me

If you knew where I am resting

You would not cry for me

I’m resting in the arms of Jesus

No other place would I rather be

So if you shed a tear

Please don’t shed it for me

For if you knew where I am resting

You would not cry for me

 Steven Kinworthy

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below

With tiny lights, like Heaven’s stars, reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear

For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear

But the sounds of music can’t compare

with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring.

For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart

But I am not so far away, we really aren’t apart.

So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear.

And be glad I’m spending Christmas

with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.

I sent you each a memory of my undying love.

After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.

It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do

For I can’t count the blessing or love he has for each of you

So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear

Remember, I am spending Christmas

with Jesus Christ this year.